It’s been a while since I posted. In that time I’ve been reading and working periodically with drawing and sketching. I’ve asked myself serious questions about the type of artist I am and am in a happier phase of drawing as I write.
I’ve been singing too. These forms of self expression are soothing to me. I go to bed early, get up late and struggle with anxious and depressed feelings through the day. I haven’t written anything since my last post and hope to write a little more in the future.
The books I’ve been reading have been my research into teen literature that I wanted to carry out a long time ago. I’ve been reading The Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Clare among other books I borrowed from the library. I’ve found myself nearing the end of a book in the Infernal Devices and I stopped reading completely a few months ago. I should finish this book soon and continue to enjoy her writing.
I find myself thinking about my youth often, my younger days in secondary school, trying to express myself in art and literature. I can do this better now having nobody bother me with my drawing. What was I trying to express back then? Religion, sexuality and art. I didn’t know much about my religion back then but it was a form of Christian-Paganism and I was drawn to Celtic imagery and books involved with the psychic soul and the third eye. I know the early Verve (an English band) explored very similar themes in their music and I love their work. I wanted to explore the female divine in my art and I did so as best as I could.
The books I read as a teenager made a profound impact on my life. They guided me through my feelings and made sense of a clairvoyance I did not know I had. LJ Smith’s work made me feel more at home with myself. The Forbidden Game had a big impact on who I was as a sculptor- I loved exploring the internal worlds she created.
I loved love-stories that had depth and a spiritual union- and it is with the themes of Love and Spirituality that I’m drawing today.